New Year, New Me?

First and foremost, Rome was not built in one day. Hah! How about a French proverb to counterattack my title. Just to make it crystal, the proverb means that it takes a long time to accomplish something amazing and impressive. To think that you are capable of changing who you are, your ways every year is simply absurd and somewhat insane. Old habits die hard, people!  No wonder New Year's Resolution are turning into a complete myth! Don't get me wrong, the desire to change for the better is human. We all have that inside, but, we must not forget that to accomplish this requires time and patience. So stop being so hard on yourself.Chill~

Let me share with you a personal phase. Back in Lower High School, I had to face through an identity crisis.I had two personalities:

(a) One at school

(b) The other one was when I was not at school

No, this is not the best of both worlds.

Okay, let's talk about my first personality, the one I 'wore' at school. I was shy, extremely shy to be honest.The bad-type-of-shy, If you know what I mean. I made no eye-contact when I was talking to somebody, I talked so fast that people found it hard to understand me as if I was speaking a foreign language. I kept everything buried inside of me,like the sadness I felt, the anger I felt when a bully belittle me, etc. But, I somehow managed to be myself, 'the real me' during class. Maybe because when you have a profound interest in something or when you are in your element you don't really care about what other people think.

SO, I was all of this at school.

The other personality I had, which was me, the real one was completely different from the first.I talked so much, I was described as a chatterbox.My aunt even wanted to sellotape my mouth just to make me stop talking.I was the opposite of shy, I was outspoken.

How is it that, I could have two personality at once? I don't know to be frank.Well, its not that easy to explain this huge personality crisis you had.I remember telling my mom every time she picked me up from school about the opportunities I missed, the pain I suffered from keeping my feelings buried inside and the things I wanted to do, but didn't.

Fast forward to upper high school during the mock interview I had in January when I was in 11th grade last year. The panel asked me a question that I will never forget.You know what he asked?

Panel: "How did you become so confident? How did you overcome stage fright which is normal for us all, would you care to share?"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Now you know my story, you might have an idea about how I felt when he asked that.

Basically people, what I want to highlight is that to become a better you is a process. A long but very meaningful journey.You slowly change as time ticks by.You grow from the people you meet, experiences you experienced and many more.So surround yourself with good people, the type you admire and have qualities you wish you had.Trust me, slowly those qualities will rub off on you.Well its only logical because..

"You are the average of five people you spend the most time with"- Jim Rohn

Till we meet again~